Midnight Randomness

I am not sure if anybody except for me is going to read this, and honestly I have been so out of touch with blogging, that I have forgotten how to make the posts private. Its midnight, and I have a roommate who cannot sleep with the lights on, so now I can't use my diary to write what I am feeling, (not that I regularly am able to express what I am feeling to my diary, she has not seen my face since the last time I was anxious about just another something completely as random as today).

So yesterday, I fell off the stairs and injured my foot. Good part - no fracture, but too much pain, could not walk, so had to stay at home and the bad part - too much time to worry about the most insignificant things in life. Its dangerous for a pessimist to have nothing else to do but think. Well, while I was too tired being worried over "what the fuck am I doing with my life (and doing nothing to change it at all)", I switched to think about "what the fuck is everyone doing with the world (however there are some people who are trying to change it)." Now, in the two days, I have read about the symptoms of coronavirus (COVID - 19), ways to prevent the same and what are the numbers that are going to be affected before it can be contained successfully. The economic times has written, "The great unknown is what will happen along the way. Doing the sums can produce alarming figures. The best estimates so far suggest that Covid-19 kills about 1% of people it infects. That number may go up somewhat or fall significantly; either way it could add up to a dreadful toll. If 60% of the world’s population is ultimately infected, as suggested by Gabriel Leung, chair of public health medicine at Hong Kong University, a 1% fatality rate would kill almost 50 million people". So, whilst a lot of people have died already, many more will die and the vaccine is difficult to develop as the scientists are having a tougher time to establish which animal really transmitted this zoonotic disease. Hopefully, summers will be a better time, and the heat would curb the virus from spreading. However, nothing stops my mind from thinking about the Book of Revelation and that this could be the end of the world. I am spiritual, yes very much. And I do believe the world has gone to the dogs, so yes maybe this is the end. The world was going to end in 2020 earlier, now maybe it will end in 2050 or maybe it will never end, and this is a fear tactic to correct the wrongs we've been doing, just like in school.

Now, why am I writing this? Cause there are two things coming to my head right now, first, what can I do to make this world a better place? And how can I help avoid people from dying. There is a thing about people with low-self esteem, they feel insignificant and useless even in the circumstances they rarely can be of any help. The second question that comes to my mind is that the things we do everyday, to attempts we make to make a better life for ourselves, what is it going to eventually yield, if the end is so close and obvious. There is a thing about lazy people, the only opportunity they do not let go off is that when they do not act at all.

Ok this helps. Thanks. Good Night!