Looking back in time,
where writing was so much easier, I only wish I could be the old “not so
self-conscious” me. That was the time I wrote only for myself and that pressure
of my write-up being appreciated by the public did not exist. I used to finish
a story, re-read a few times and was satisfied with whatever little creativity
my brain had come up with. And as I grew, grew the audience; friends noticed my
scribbles and I was encouraged to change the privacy settings of my blog to:
Public!
Now guess what was
the first thing that happened after the stories I wrote were no longer a
secret? Well! I started reading them with someone else’s perspective, and I didn’t
like them like before. I thought they were mediocre and nothing to boast on a
social platform. So I took my posts off the net (I have them in hardcopy, not
much lost). I started reading a lot to improvise my imagination, to build a
fancy vocabulary (which I don’t have till date) and to write in a way that
attracted greater social applause. Reading others made it more hopeless, “there
are so many of them, all better writers, nobody will like what I write” is a
summary of what went in my head. And that’s when I lost me. I wrote little,
decorated with whatever I found was trending and posted only after couple of
people had approved of it. Since then I have been trying to come out of the
lust to impress people (not ONLY because I failed at it).
So why am I writing
this? Because I believe I am not the only one who went through this. Anybody
can write, everyone must write, it’s a stress-buster and clears your head like
nothing else can. Write for yourself, and if you seek for appreciation, one day
you will find the right audience (Me motivating me).
Remember what I tell you every time I read what you have written?
ReplyDeleteIt’s always fresh and it’s always new. I am pretty sure every writer goes through this; I still am. It’s nice and brave of you to acknowledge it openly.
Thank you for writing and sharing!!
Thank you so much Shubham!! 😊 I am glad you like it. My right audience! ☺️
ReplyDeleteFancy vocab has no value if it fails in conveying the emotions of writer to the readers. So, plain & flowing write-ups, such as this one, are more likely to bind the audience till the end of the piece.
ReplyDeleteSo, keep on! Feel the keys on your finger tips & tap them in any pattern that your brain (or heart for that matter) desires.
Sir yes sir!! Thanks :)
DeleteLack of confidence. I know your potential you can write much better than this. I am waiting for the next.
ReplyDeleteHaha. Exactly what I tried to portray in the write up: the lack of confidence. Thanks :)
DeleteNice one!🖒
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